Wednesday, April 18, 2012

A New Beginning Is Scary

Greetings, Gentle Readers!

A new beginning is scary. That is a true saying. But it is also quite exciting! Let me tell you of the path that has been laid out before me.

First, after months of stress, I walked away from my job. I know. Not the least bit responsible. But so very necessary. After what seemed like an eternity of problems, I came to the fork in the road. One way kept me on the same path with the same stressors. One path led me another direction that had all the clarity of a cloudy window pane. Which direction? Well, you've heard the saying, if you keep doing the same thing over and over, you will keep getting the same result. And the same result just wasn't acceptable anymore.

We are facing challenges. We are strained financially waiting on my partner's VA compensation to come through. I need to find something to supplement our small income. And I have a goal in mind which includes another training/behavior opportunity. It's one I truly want: one that would give me the chance to really grow.

What I can say is that I've never felt better! My stress level is, even though times are a bit tough, so much lower. I'm eating better. I'm enjoying walking with my dogs. I'm enjoying having time with my partner to cook together and spend time with one another. This has been a decision that's needed to be made for quite a while now and it was the right one.

So what's to be learned here? I think the biggest thing for me was to not hang on to that which doesn't encourage and create joy in my life. Too often we hold on to things, people, jobs that just dry us up emotionally and spiritually because it's "the right thing to do." Maybe it's not the right thing. Maybe the right thing is to step into the light, grab ahold of that which edifies yourself and others, and walk toward that fork in the road! Funny thing about doing that. When you do, The Universe is there to catch you and lead you forward.

I think this has been a good lesson in trust. It's been a good lesson in taking better care of myself. And it's time to share that good lesson with others! Step out. Trust your inner spirit! Make a new beginning not so scary!

Blessed Be my friends...

2 comments:

Tammy said...

Good for you! I know it was hard to take that step but as you have said, you are already seeing the benefits from it.

RevCindi said...

Thanks Tammy. It's quite amazing how letting go releases the blessings of our Goddess! Whew! Big steps equal big changes!